CRUSHED..

Never before have i felt that school REALLY isnt for me.. i got two of my 6 results back today. Maths and Legal. For legal, all year ive been doing average, stick with the rest of the class sticking to the lower halve of the ranks, but still doing my work as told. Today when i got exams results back i was brain dead for 30mins.. Reflecting on how bad my mark was, feeling depressed, anger and overall SHIT! i thought that i would have at least gotten 50-60s because i have put in ALOT of effort into study and revising. Another thing that made me feel anger was rereading the third part of the exam paper.....i was thinking 'you've got to be SHITING ME' when i found out that the third part needed you to answer to 3 points not the one, i reread the question 5 times at least, and did not find ONE word which indicated that you needed 3 points for the essay, worst of all i knew the information needed..3pages and i got only 8/20 for sec3 because of that, there is a lot of other parts of legal in which i could complain about.

in period 5 and 3 periods after legal i found out my mark for math’s, once again i felt the same emotion as i did back in legal, 17\84....'WHAT THE F***' there is no way i got that, i was aiming for 70s and i spent a lot of time studying, revising for the damn subject.

anyway, after the period i was thinking about how i shouldn't try anymore, the more i try the harder i fall, like year 9 ive gotten 60-70s easy no effort needed in study etc.
but for that past 3 terms ive tried hard and failed harder, what a start to year 12, my confidence in myself in next to nothing now.